| | I make a big deal about my girl troubles, I know. A lot of you probably roll your eyes just a little by now. This is just a place for me to vent, though, only the friends I really know and trust know about this place. I've kept it from most casual friends who might be burdened by the sensitive information it contains.
Been doing a lot of looking back lately. A year ago I had no job, was living in my parents' house, never hung out with friends because I didn't have any, didn't go to any church because I didn't see any point, and kept on putting off volunteer work even though I knew it would be good for me and for the people I'd be helping.
Now, a year later, I have held down a job with near perfect attendance (only one absence in the last six months or more), excellent performance, I've been living on my own for nine months and doing more than just paying the bills, I have a significant surplus even without my big tax refund. I have a church home, am on the drama team which has become like family, and other friends besides. Just last night I spent eight hours with new friends - went to an Irish concert, then dinner at Ruby Tuesday, then a movie until we couldn't keep our eyes open. I got invited to that, too, I didn't make the plans myself. I have also done a bit of volunteer work, and found it very fulfilling, if a bit inefficient due to the commute.
Am I where I want to be? No. I want to have a wife and eventually children, I want a better job, and I want to get back into writing music. But I'm moving on up - yes, on the east side - and of all things, I find myself looking at getting my master's degree in music composition. There is still a lot of anxiety to be dealt with, mostly due to a certain young lady who might just be more than a friend soon... but LIFE IS GOOD. That's no small thing for me, after depression for three solid years. I have bad days often, but not constantly anymore. Even starting to come back to God... slowly and cautiously. Trust is going to have to be built back up there.
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